Wendy's Lunch

Went to the saloon with Nabilla & Sally. 

I already miss those girls. 

WENDY'S SOON! 

Game. Set. Match. 

Look, Bones, I love you. 

Wouldn't you want a Booth to say that to you? Le sigh.

I would have graduated if I stayed in Tp. I would have achieved something. I would have lost my soul but I would have achieved something. This stint in RP seems useless now. But the show must go on. Le sigh.

"If you ever had an asthma attack before you're short of breath, wheezing, the only thing you're trying to do is get some air. You don’t care about a basketball game, you don’t care about what’s on T.V., you don’t care about anybody calling you, you don’t care about a party. The only thing you care about when you're trying to breathe is to get some fresh air. That’s it! And when you get to the point where all you want to do is be successful as bad as you want to breathe, then you will be successful. Most of you say you want to be successful but you don’t want it bad, you just kind of want it. You don’t want it badder than you want to party. You don’t want it as much as you want to be cool. Most of you don’t want success as much as you want sleep. Some of you lost sleep more than you lost success. If you're going to be successful you have to be willing to give up sleep" -Eric Thomas 

Love, Me. 

WHAT? ANOTHER B? 

damn, expectation too high and cannot be met. my eyes are a quarter of a second away from closing and this is all I have to say for myself. I have to stop trying to compete with others. My grades are my own. my story is my own. My strengths are my own. My weaknesses are my own.

Stop playing a fool and start concentrating. 

but it all just feels so useless now. After poly what is there? Work then? Death? Family? Friends? What can someone just give me an answer because I'm on shaky ground and so close to sinking in.

You know feminist jokes or racist jokes or any kind of hurtful jokes? They only have as much power as you give them.

It scares me when they say that the quietest people have the loudest minds. I mean, does it mean because I speak my mind and want to grab the best time possible that my mind is dead silent?That I dont think?  I think that the phrase was said by some quite guy who want to console himself on not having a good time. Being quite and listening pays off, but sometimes you have to let loose and see where you mouth takes you.

xx

ps. School's okay, I'm fine, I'm studying so it's all good. 

ESN EVENT - HPB 21 March 2012

My kids for the day, Group A1! 

Yasmin playing Knock It Down

After all the activities, Brock, Yasmin, Rebbeca, Lola & Shauna

Lola being cute!

Cleo 

Made her cry today. HAHAH

Kate playing Knock It Down

Class couple

Cheeezeeeeeeee!

Wanita Dalam Hitam degan Mirldawati A.Hassan (19 March 2012)

So Watis & I watched The Woman In Black recently and to get to our seats we had to shimmy past this lady who gave us like 3 inches to walk past. 3 f-ing inches. I think she just wanted a lap dance. You know, she could have just asked, I'm sure Watis would have obliged.

Hello/Goodbye Money!

Forever 21 USD $8.80

Forever 21 USD $6.80

Forever 21 USD $4.80

H&M $24.90

I miss being loved. I miss being needed. I miss looking around and seeing people i love. I miss having someone but for right now, having someone is just not worth it. You know what it'd cost. It'd cost a arm and limb and just about everything that I cant possible lose right now.


 but boy, do I miss being special to someone.

     

I hate the streets I used to roam.

Tips for the future.

Tip#1: Don’t give a man more than he gives you.
Tip #2: Don’t give away exclusivity if he hasn’t yet committed.

Tip #3: Don’t plan dates.

Sushi Rice

3 cups uncooked sushi rice or sticky rice
3 cups water
½ cup rice vinegar
½ cup sugar
1 teaspoon salt

1. Wash the rice and rinse thoroughly.
2. Place rice and water in a rice cooker and set until cooked. Alternately, place rice and water in a medium saucepan. Bring to a boil over high heat, reduce to a simmer, and cook covered until done, 35 to 45 minutes.
3. Meanwhile, mix together the rice vinegar, sugar and salt in a small saucepan; cook over medium heat until sugar has dissolved. Allow to cool.
4. Put the cooked rice into a large mixing bowl; pour the vinegar sauce over the hot rice and mix. Allow to cool slightly before using in sushi recipes.
   
   

Deadline: 13 March 2012

• Daddy's letter + Cpf note
• Passport sized photo scanned in
• Camp form to be completed
• Double check enrollment
• Books to be returned
• Borrow: One Salt Sea - Seanan McGuire 

Valley's & Peaks: 10 March 2010

Gonna post a quick on because I'm running on 20% battery life left.

Peaks: Got to sleep in (again) woke up to calls from R & my uncle, it's always nice to hear from friends. Started out my day with finishing the last lib book I had, it turned out to be such a good book, I read till 4 in the afternn. Anyway, had my watermelon ice blend plus a chocolate waffle for lunch after that, then headed out to the lib to return/borrow book. Guess what? Found the three other installments for the book I read in the morning, so i picked them all up and was in and out of the lib within 10 mins. Some kind of record I would say! Moving on, read/surfed the net while waiting for my mum to come home so we could head to my aunts place for dinner cum family gathering. And oh what a dinner it was! Spagetti, Asam Pedas (Stingray & fish!!), Ikan Kicap, Stir Fired Veggies and CEREAL PRAWNS. Also had an laugh-a-min time with my family there, with all the kate spades & coach bags been "modeled" for sale there. ah, good times you guys. Let's hope that no matter how far apart I may grow from them, that I may also remember happy moments like this. ♥

Valleys: Felt bad for not saying Hi to you, felt even worst when you remembered my name. But in my defense, you looked so different! Also, originally had plans to go teach N english then head to Bugis with R&T but T had other plans so I kinda got lazy to head over to N's house. I am the worst tuition teacher ever. Room is officially labeled messy and I havent followed through with my promise to go to the gym. I break out in shivers every time I think about it ( I exaggerate)  And and and, I had to rely on spellcheck for the duration of this post. Spelling not getting any better ): Oh and 1 am and i'm craving for cereal prawns. wtf.

Seanan McGuire - October Daye Novels

Found a new series to read! One down, three to go!

lovess xx

Valleys & Peaks: 9 March 2012

Peaks: Got to sleep into today, heaven compared to the past days. Then I got to laze about, finishing two books I borrowed. A third will be finished tonight as soon as I get my dinner. After lazing around got ready and went out with A and got to visit the smoochiezz flea. Make up was nice today, grey & brown smokey eye and the usual strong brows. Found a packet of Honey Mustard Pretzels that cost only 1.10 at the Korean Supermarket over at Far East Plaza ( Bought two packs!! )Bought some small thing at the flea, cost only 3 buck so why not right? Had a nice breezy walk home alone with just the wind and my thoughts. Came home and HIMYM Season 7's almost done downloading. Might be done by 3 in the morning. Room's pretty clean? Decided to sign up for the camp today, whether I go or not is another matter. Herman tagged me in a funny assed vid! Getto Dora! Oh and found a wonderful new singer on youtube, Chloe T. Also, got 6 bucks plus dinner from Ddy today! Save moneyy!

 Valleys: Not sure what to do tmr, thought of going for Nk's Holi thing but Fz & Sq arent going so maybe not huh? So negative responses from them kinda bright me down a little. Texted and facebooked H if he was gg to M's to teach N (as I'm gonna do tmr morning) and abosolutly no response. Maybe he'll reply later? I hate not getting replies to my msges. (not that I'm pissed or anything) Came back home to an empty pitch black household. Oh wait, it wasnt empty just that everyone locked themselves in their rooms. *this is not a home, it's a house. i'm financially unstable. Running really low on cash, 30 dollars for the rest of the month low. Feeling kinda lonely these days. That's all I'll say about it.


***If you judge people, you have no time to love them. 

Triple Chocolate Caramel Brownies

        

Motorola RAZR XT910

29 Feb 2012

Wedding Discussion with the Drama guys!

After my bath I will.

- get watermelon ice blend
- return my lib books
- get my bank number.
- put cash back in
- buy a planner/notebook
- do my finances for the month
- confirm my awfully chocolate schedule. (call kara)
- sort out laundry

Huda Halil's Turning TwentyOne!

what to wear ):

xx

I need to get a note book. a proper one. maybe a moleskin one.







ah, who am I kidding, I'd never blast that much cash onto a moleskin notebook.

I heard somewhere that if at one point of time you become really really happy, you'll become really really sad afterwards. Maybe because the things that happen after couldn't live up to your expectations. I've made myself so many promises and not one of them fulfilled. I'm gonna work on one list now and for the whole year, i'll work at it. And I'll check back on 31st Dec 2012.

*NTS:
Remember 31st. Remember how it felt like with all friends by your side. To hurt (because of some  douchebag) yet still know that you'll be fine. To look at the (delayed) fireworks and to know that your whole life stretches before you. Know that many, many, many things change but moments do not. What you felt at the one moment in time; nobody can erase, nobody can replace.

Out of everything, remember that thing change and these things happen but never forget the lessons learnt and the smile given.

Apparently, "monies" is real word! Huh, who knew? :)

Thank you for all you've done.

Alhamdulillah.
Ya Allah, thank you for all you've given me. For never leaving me even after all my stupid mistakes. For giving me parents that only want the best for me. For giving me chance after chance to prove myself. For answering all my prayers. For ensuring that at every step of the way, I'm safe. For guiding me safely, through out everything.

I may not have gotten the course I wanted but at least it's a course. I'm still hoping that I maybe able to get into the course that I want but if this is the path that I have to take, then, it's the path that i'll take.

Explaining twilight in one sentence.

I feel a bit weird doing nothing. I'm not here or there, I'm nowhere I want to be right now. I wish I could fast forward this part of my life.
xx

Favorite Chocolate Chip Cookies

1 cup butter
1 cup brown sugar
1/2 cup sugar
2 eggs (room temp if possible)
1 teaspoon pure vanilla
3 cups flour
1 teaspoon baking soda
3/4 teaspoon salt
1 1/2 cups semi-sweet chocolate chips (feel free to throw in the whole bag if you like them super chocolate-y)

Cream butter, brown sugar and white sugar together in a mixer. Then add the eggs, one at a time. Beat until creamy. Add the vanilla.

In another bowl mix the dry ingredients together before slowly adding them to the creamed mixture. When combined, stop the mixer and add the semi-sweet chips. Mix up and then drop by the teaspoonful onto an ungreased cookie sheet. Mold them into a ball as best as you can with the spoon for a more shaped cookie.

Bake on 350 degrees for 8 minutes. Place on wire rack to cool. Enjoy!

Things I'd like.

Mundane Mondays.

It has been done. I have submitted the application. 

I find it funny that if by chance, I scroll by this post a year later,  I'd already know everything that happens after this. 

I wonder what's in store for me.

168 girls for ♥

Excerpt from Oprah Mag, 20 Questions You Need To Ask Yourself.

1. What questions should I be asking myself? At first I thought asking yourself what you should be asking yourself was redundant. It isn't. Without this question, you wouldn't ask any others, so it gets top billing. It creates an alert, thoughtful mind state, ideal for ferreting out the information you most need in every situation. Ask it frequently. 

2. Is this what I want to be doing? 
This very moment is, always, the only moment in which you can make changes. Knowing which changes are best for you comes, always, from assessing what you feel. Ask yourself many times every day if you like what you're doing. If the answer is no, start noticing what you'd prefer. Thus begins the revolution. 

3. Why worry? 
These two words, considered sincerely, can radically reconfigure the landscape of your mind. Worry rarely leads to positive action; it's just painful, useless fear about hypothetical events, which scuttles happiness rather than ensuring it. Some psychologists say that by focusing on gratitude, we can shut down the part of the brain that worries. It actually works! 

4. Why do I like {cupcakes} more than I like {people}? 
Feel free to switch out the words in brackets: You may like TV more than exercise, or bad boys more than nice guys, or burglary more than reading. Whatever the particulars, every woman has something she likes more than the somethings she's supposed to like. But forcing "virtues"—trying to like people more than cupcakes—drives us to vices that offer false freedom from oppression. Stop trying to like the things you don't like, and many vices will disappear on their own. 

5. How do I want the world to be different because I lived in it? 
Your existence is already a factor in world history—now, what sort of factor do you want it to be? Maybe you know you're here to create worldwide prosperity, a beautiful family, or one really excellent bagel. If your impressions are more vague, keep asking this question. Eventually you'll glimpse clearer outlines of your destiny. Live by design, not by accident. 

6. How do I want to be different because I lived in this world? In small ways or large, your life will change the world—and in small ways or large, the world will change you. What experiences do you want to have during your brief sojourn here? Make a list. Make a vision board. Make a promise. This won't control your future, but it will shape it. 

7. Are {vegans} better people? 
Again, it doesn't have to be vegans; the brackets are for you to fill in. Substitute the virtue squad that makes you feel worst about yourself, the one you'll never have the discipline to join, whether it's ultra-marathoners or mothers who never raise their voices. Whatever group you're asking about, the answer to this question is no. 

8. What is my body telling me? 
As I often say, my mind is a two-bit whore—by which I mean that my self-justifying brain, like any self-justifying brain, will happily absorb beliefs based on biases, ego gratification, magical thinking, or just plain error. The body knows better. It's a wise, capable creature. It recoils from what's bad for us, and leans into what's good. Let it. 

9. How much junk could a chic chick chuck if a chic chick could chuck junk? I believe this question was originally posed by Lao Tzu, who also wrote, "To become learned, each day add something. To become enlightened, each day drop something." Face it: You'd be better off without some of your relationships, many of your possessions, and most of your thoughts. Chuck your chic-chick junk, chic chick. Enlightenment awaits. 

10. What's so funny? 
Adults tend to put this question to children in a homicidal-sounding snarl, which is probably why as you grew up, your laughter rate dropped from 400 times a day (for toddlers) to the grown-up daily average of 15. Regain your youth by laughing at every possible situation. Then, please, tell us what's funny—about everyday life, about human nature, even about pain and fear. We'll pay you anything. 


11. Where am I wrong? 
This might well be the most powerful question on our list—as Socrates believed, we gain our first measure of intelligence when we first admit our own ignorance. Your ego wants you to avoid noticing where you may have bad information or unworkable ideas. But you'll gain far more capability and respect by asking where you're wrong than by insisting you're right. 

12. What potential memories am I bartering, and is the profit worth the price?
I once read a story about a world where people sold memories the way we can sell plasma. The protagonist was an addict who'd pawned many memories for drugs but had sworn never to sell his memory of falling in love. His addiction won. Afterward he was unaware of his loss, lacking the memory he'd sold. But for the reader, the trade-off was ghastly to contemplate. Every time you choose social acceptance over your heart's desires, or financial gain over ethics, or your comfort zone over the adventure you were born to experience, you're making a similar deal. Don't. 

13. Am I the only one struggling not to {fart} during {yoga}? 
I felt profoundly liberated when this issue was raised on Saturday Night Live's "Weekend Update." Not everyone does yoga, but SNL reminded me that everyone dreads committing some sort of gaffe. Substitute your greatest shame-fear: crying at work, belching in church, throwing up on the prime minister of Japan. Then know you aren't alone. Everyone worries about such faux pas, and many have committed them (well, maybe not the throwing up on PMs). Accepting this is a bold step toward mental health and a just society. 

14. What do I love to practice? 
Some psychologists believe that no one is born with any particular talent and that all skill is gained through practice. Studies have shown that masters are simply people who've practiced a skill intensely for 10,000 hours or more. That requires loving—not liking, loving—what you do. If you really want to excel, go where you're passionate enough to practice. 

15. Where could I work less and achieve more? 
To maximize time spent practicing your passions, minimize everything else. These days you can find machines or human helpers to assist with almost anything. Author Timothy Ferriss "batches" job tasks into his famous "four-hour workweek." My client Cindy has an e-mail ghostwriter. Another client, Angela, hired an assistant in the Philippines who flawlessly tracks her schedule and her investments. Get creative with available resources to find more time in your life and life in your time. 

16. How can I keep myself absolutely safe? 
Ask this question just to remind yourself of the answer: You can't. Life is inherently uncertain. The way to cope with that reality is not to control and avoid your way into a rigid little demi-life, but to develop courage. Doing what you long to do, despite fear, will accomplish this. 

17. Where should I break the rules?
If everyone kept all the rules, we'd still be practicing cherished traditions like child marriage, slavery, and public hangings. The way humans become humane is by assessing from the heart, rather than the rule book, where the justice of a situation lies. Sometimes you have to break the rules around you to keep the rules within you. 

18. So say I lived in that fabulous house in Tuscany, with untold wealth, a gorgeous, adoring mate, and a full staff of servants...then what? 
We can get so obsessed with acquiring fabulous lives that we forget to live. When my clients ask themselves this question, they almost always discover that their "perfect life" pastimes are already available. Sharing joy with loved ones, spending time in nature, finding inner peace, writing your novel, plotting revenge—you can do all these things right now. Begin! 

19. Are my thoughts hurting or healing? 
Your situation may endanger your life and limbs, but only your thoughts can endanger your happiness. Telling yourself a miserable mental story about your circumstances creates suffering. Telling yourself a more positive and grateful story, studies show, increases happiness. Wherever you are, whatever you're doing, choose thoughts that knit your heart together, rather than tear it apart. 

20. Really truly: Is this what I want to be doing? 
It's been several seconds since you asked this. Ask it again. Not to make yourself petulant or frustrated—just to see if it's possible to choose anything, and I mean any little thing, that would make your present experience more delightful. Thus continues the revolution. 

Read more: http://www.oprah.com/spirit/Martha-Becks-20-Questions-That-Could-Change-Your-Life_1/3#ixzz1lrti8Okc

Multiple Choice.

I had a dream last night. . .

More like nightmare, actually. I was in bed with this guy and I felt like I was wrong to want to be loved. I asked myself where I went wrong and I remember thinking really hard to whether I was single or not. Then somehow the answer popped up " 25 and already married".

okayy.
creepy much?

Here's what I was thinking. . .

In the mornings: NuTeen Oil Away Facial Cleanser/ Any Combi skim facial cleanser
                          Bio-Essence Hydra Moisturizer

For the nights: Silkygirl Hydrating Makeup Remover Lotion on Pureen wet wipes
                        St. Ives Sensitive skin Apricot Scrub
                        Liquid Neutrogena Soap
                        Heavy Cream Moisturizer

Late night movies.

1.  Death at a Funeral
2. Dumb & Dumber
3. Forgetting Sarah Marshall

Where my busy people at?

•  1. Call Zoo @ 6269 3411
    2. Call TCC @ 6336 5675
    3. Call MOE @ 6872 2220 
  4. Call RP @ 6510 3000
  
  
• 7 Feb 2012: Room cleaning, Library book returning & Swim session 

• 8 Feb 2012: RP DAE applications opens @ 2 pm

• 10 Feb 2012: Dental @ 11                                                                                                                   - Please rmb to come up with a good excuse to why you were gone for three months.

Punam Nikki Rai's Awesome Turning Nineteen Party. (5 Feb 2012)

Happy Birthday Sweetheart!! 

Burrry lips.

meows.

Pink wolves hunt you down. . .

Desktop right now. (4 Feb 2012)

I gave into temptations

And now I pay the price. 

It's vital that I look for a job now. 

Not because I want more money (I do) but to teach myself that every thing has a price. 

You want a pretty gold watch that you dont need? Bitch you pay for that watch. You pay triple.

You pay by forgoing the easy leisure time you might have had. 

YOU PAY BY ENTERING THE WORKFORCE. 

whether you like it or not.

Dum dum dum! 

Lusting after right now . . .

1. Revlon Lip Butters
2. Denim Jeans
3. Gold Breo Watch

I dont matter to so many people. It's not something to be pitied, it's just a fact. A sad one but oh wells.