March 27, 2014 at 01:01AM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1j4eUiu Reporting for duty, sir. ;) // Day 2 @ Center for Disasters Prevention

March 24, 2014 at 11:46PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1nUbeo1 Ready, set, go. Bye Singsporeeeeeeee

March 24, 2014 at 04:13PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1nSQmh9 Hella ready for some sushi. Flying off tonight but im already in the east!

March 24, 2014 at 04:12PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1gszSbr Hella ready for sushi.

March 20, 2014 at 01:55PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1eUsyje She used to tower over me. She used to hold my hand across the street and buy me breakfast, lunch and dinner and then when i cried, she would rush to comfort me

March 19, 2014 at 12:06AM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1iZBE5K I don't wanna go to heaven, if you're going to hell. I will burn with you // Burn with you

Gone tonight.

Gone tonight
Right under the bridge like water
Promising to love you harder.

March 15, 2014 at 02:15AM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1cGfdjl The thing about pain is that it demands to be felt. //John Green

March 10, 2014 at 07:18PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1k9UWmb Go in with your eyes wide open.

March 10, 2014 at 12:40PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1lmZJk8 Remember?

I think I am so much more.

I am so much more than what you think of me.
I am so much more than what you see of me.
I am so much more than what I see of myself.
I am so much more than what I say in front of you
I am so much more than what I do in front of you
I am so much more than the little boxes you put me in.

I am so much more than one singular thing.
I am a million things rolled into one body.

This world is huge and vast and so is my imagination. I think of a hundred little things everyday and each little thing is so different. And I never knew why it rankles me so much to have someone stereotype me, but as I think upon it further, it makes sense. I am not a thing or an object that comes with a set manual. I change all the time and people keep putting labels on me, expecting me to act or react a certain way.

Nobody bothers to find out more these days. Everybody just sees what's on the surface.

What if you don't like who you've become?

What then?

Gonna clear up the mess that is my room tonight. Then we'll work on:

- Organizing the cupboard
- Organizing my books

March 06, 2014 at 02:48AM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1jS17eh The greatest joy begins with being able to recognise joy. See things for what they're worth don't sweat the small stuff.

March 04, 2014 at 01:50AM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1c1AovO Wise words from Lupita Nyong'o. #linesofmarch

March 01, 2014 at 11:53AM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1dL8IGF Don't know how much better Friday nights can get!

March 01, 2014 at 11:51AM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1dL8Iqi The overwhelming relief of having NO MORE UTS.

Have you ever had an ache so sharp that it's all you can do to grit your teeth? And getting the words out feeling like smashing crowbars onto your teeth, literally having to pull them out one by one? An anger so heavy it propels you to ground zero with a weight that lingers at your throat? Where you physically want to feel something fresh and sharp and burning on your skin to tell yourself that you're not crazy and that the pain is really there?

you need to watch your words with people. don't take shit out on them.

I feel like telling you to leave me out to dry, to not pretend that you care for me. Fucking hell, I'm done caring about you idiots. im always the one putting in the effort asking people out and shit but what the fuck do you care? if im gone im gone not like any of you fucking care

Came home from one of the best days of the week only to have you pick out my flaws. No, hello, how was your day. You go straight to the point.

Yes, I get it, I'm ugly and I'm not good enough.
I know I'm not pretty, I'm fat and I just basically suck at everything. Why you feel the need to point that out?

February 28, 2014 at 12:23AM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1cVV2vw Another one for my birthday girl!

February 28, 2014 at 12:23AM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1cVV2vw Another one for my birthday girl!

February 28, 2014 at 12:21AM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1koyMMu Here's to so many more years of friendship and love and sunshine! Happy Birthday @filzzie! Love youuuu <3

Sometimes the fight isn't worth it. Just let go and be free.

Sometimes the fight isn't worth it. Just let go and be free.

Be alone, but free.
I keep trying and trying to be the best person I can be but I still feel like I'm living in a glass jar.
always just echoing back.

it's nights like these with no stars, or light to guide my way where I falter.
And maybe

February 23, 2014 at 05:39PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1eiFxKt Fight the good fight. // Midnight movie with my darlings. I need these moments to last forevaaa.

There`s someone I`ve been missing

I think that they could be

The better half of me

Come home

Come home

Cause I`ve been waiting for you

For so long

For so long

And right now there's a war between the vanities

But all i see is you and me

The fight for you is all I`ve ever known

So come home

Oooh

- Come Home
One Republic ft Sara Bareilles

It's okay if you don't value me because I value myself and I know there are those who value me.

I feel like I'm always the one pushing people away.

Every time I label someone important, I put so many expectations on them and I end up being disappointed. And this is through my own fault.

I can't think of how to stop this other than to not label anyone important.

When we love, we love with sincerity and equality okay?

February 17, 2014 at 10:39PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1cQr5JU I'm a little heartbroken that there'll be no more classes of Health Ethics and Law again. No more North canteen breaks, no more heading to TRCC. No more slacking. No more laws. No more taking selfies. No more giving people nicknames they hate. No more class ):

February 16, 2014 at 10:29PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1kLwIku Honey, this world's big enough for the two of us

February 05, 2014 at 08:35PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1bu1IQV I went in Tp not knowing what I was in for but I left so much better than before. Nikki, you are one of the treasures that I've gotten from TP. There are so many words that need to be spoken and thoughts that need to be conveyed and hugs that need to be given, I don't even know where to start. But I'll start from here, Happy Birthday Nikki! And ill leave everything else that I need to say for a more private message. Love you!

February 03, 2014 at 04:08PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1imbdmZ Cause if I go flying off the ledge, you go flying off as well.

February 02, 2014 at 08:40PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1bjQSge Pho dinner pho sure. (Geddit?!)

February 01, 2014 at 04:51PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1gA07NQ First attempt! Thanks, @samueloke @rahmatkhairudin & juiying!!

February 01, 2014 at 01:13PM

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Caught the sun set at the east today. It was beautiful

January 29, 2014 at 04:50PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1d7k3zK HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIN! I LURVEEEE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.

Moments

I think that sometimes moments shouldn't be shared.
That sometimes moments belong to a person.
Like little secrets in the crevices of your soul, moments should belong only to you.
And with every secret smile and wish and dream made in the moment, it completes you and moulds you and strengthens you.
Keeps you sane.

Out of the harshest of times, emerge the most beautiful words.

January 26, 2014 at 09:08PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/1mK0J0F Tis a happy lunar new year.

January 24, 2014 at 07:48PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/KTeqP9 I want to know the world but also know my home. I want to be in love with the road, the sights and sounds, the moments where you think you're done for, The moments you wonder why you love the road The moments where everything fades away and the sunset becomes the only thing that's surrounding you I want to fall in love with the world as it is.

Introducing,

Fridays are awesome. And everyday should be awesome. 

I feel like should be spent embracing the Friday's in life.
The sweet moments where you feel like flying 

Or the ones where you feel you wanna pause. 

So #thefridayproject, 

every time a moment like this comes along,
take a picture of the one thing that makes you glow. 

or shine.

#thefridayproject

January 17, 2014 at 01:52PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/19yoEQ2 Eco friendly Friday's (no, not really)

January 13, 2014 at 10:55PM

via Instagram http://ift.tt/19pfw0e It's just another night, on the other side.

January 10, 2014 at 08:19AM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/i981XtnzRd/ You, me, them and they.

January 06, 2014 at 02:00PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/i0Qtu8nzbB/ Snack before heading to the courts. So exciteddddddddddddddd

The best teacher is your worst mistake

January 03, 2014 at 11:30PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/itjjSnHzSF/ You're like Pandora's Box. Never should have opened what was closed.

Skin bubbles

Again.


I don't suppose you have a way of not making this hurt anymore. No. This doesn't hurt anymore, what it feels like is like the last slow burn of the fire, the aftermath of a sting. I'm not in shock anymore, I don't completely lose my appetite. I don't feel the slice of old memories trying to cut through to the surface. Instead, the feel like little bubbles in my skin, trying to pop through - but now I know better than to tear through the skin to get to the memories. Now I leave them untouched.

But you get to me.
You always do.
Why.

December 28, 2013 at 05:25PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/iddA1snzcA/ Double smiles xx

December 28, 2013 at 10:37AM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/icuUv-nzeE/ All grown up xx

December 25, 2013 at 05:55PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/iVyA7XHzUn/ Waiting, always waiting.

December 25, 2013 at 04:26PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/iVn2fxnza_/ Waiting, always waiting.

You feel me?

I feel like this is something that should be said:

Don't be a victim of your own thoughts. Every time you put yourself down, you shortchange yourself.

"I'm not smart enough" - Just by thinking that, you've already lost 3/4 of the battle. It sounds cocky but if you don't believe in yourself; who will? Sometimes I get really mad at myself for belittling my own worth. Every time I refuse to take a stand, or to really work for something, I lose out on something that had the potential to be life-changing. The worst part is, we often trade off these life-changing moment for a couple moments of feeling 'safe'. In other words, we'd rather not have amazing, soul-renewing, center-finding moments because we'd rather stay in our comfort zones. The best quote I've heard describe this is this:

" A ship in the habour is safe; but that is not what ships are made for "

Ships were made to cross oceans, to find new land, to bring you to all the amazing cultures and people that this planet can offer. They were made to stay afloat through storms and crashing waves, they were built for amazing feats, exactly like what we were made for. The comfort zone represents our habour, do you really want to be docked in the habour your whole life? To never taste authentic paella, to never see dolphins twirl and jump through waves? To never catch a snowflake in your hands? To never have the satisfaction of conquering a fear or a goal? Do you never want to be proud of yourself? 

It's hard, I know. Some days I feel useless and stagnant. Like I wasted my last dollar on an ice-cube that melted before I had the chance to taste the cool. It feels like I'll die soon, nothing to show for the time that I'm alive. It feels like there's a jarring silence at the back of my head, ringing in my ears telling me to stop. My lips droop, my eyes only open halfway and nothing - nothing can convince me that every thing will work out. I falter on these days. I take it one breathe at a time, one heart beat at a time. Sometimes it passes in a day, and sometimes it takes a few weeks - but it does. It passes. 

When it does, I remind myself all over again, you are the most important person to yourself - and you are. If you wouldn't call a friend fat or ugly or a dumb-skunk-filled-trash-for-brains-asshole, then why the hell would you call yourself that?! Do you know how hard your body works to keep you alive? The beating it takes from when you're insecure about the fats that make sure your internal organs are well-protected? From you hating the color of your skin and hair - of which it had no control over? From you hating acne which is basically caused by your skin trying to compensate for itself? Your body works 24/7 for you and you dare insult it? When you hate yourself - you lack respect for your body. Please, it won't be easy, but you need to realize and appreciate what you have. You are alive - your body has kept you alive. Be thankful, love it. Keep it happy and healthy. 

You hate yourself because you don't respect yourself - and  you don't respect yourself because you don't understand that miracle that you are. A living, breathing miracle. 

Do you ever feel like life is rushing pass by you and you're a step away from getting swept away but it also feels like you're cemented to the ground?

Do you ever feel so a part of yourself but then again apart from everybody else?

Do you ever feel like you have 15 different sections to your soul and no one -no one- bothers to look past the first?

Do you ever just feel a little too much?

xx

December 17, 2013 at 01:08AM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/h_YdL-nzR-/ Syafiq xx

December 17, 2013 at 01:07AM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/h_YQa-HzRu/ Filzy xx

December 17, 2013 at 01:03AM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/h_XzDxnzRD/ We don't need attention. We deserve it.

December 16, 2013 at 08:33PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/h-46fRHzdZ/ Where my instagram people at?!

December 14, 2013 at 02:27AM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/h3zHRDHzaB/ Friday the thirteenth with Zaidi.

You never know the demons that a person has. Each so perfectly formed, so perfectly in tuned to your weaknesses. They know how to press you, how to stretch you, how do plummet you down. 

Mine are sneaky, they come in disguise. They tell you it's okay to falter, to fail. If I fail, I should fail spectacularly, because that's what people expect of me. 

Demons in my mind, urgh. 

Ahh, I feel like crap today.

I feel like nothing I'm doing is really paying off and I'm getting really pissed at myself for slacking off. I need to be good enough already and I need to be pretty enough and strong enough and JUST GOOD ALREADY.

The past week was pretty good, I don't know why all of a sudden I feel like total crap. But I guess this is just a part of the lows in life. I wish it didnt feel like crap. I wish I was good enough. I wish I didnt feel like I need to compete with everybody. Caliz, there will be people better than you. I to understand that just because I'm not as good as them, it doesn't mean that I'm worthless.

YOU SEEE. I KNOW WHAT I NEED TO DO BUT I CANT FIND IT IN ME TO DO IT. WHAT THE HELL CALIZ WHAT THE HELL WILL YOU GET YOUR LIFE TOGETHER ALREADY COMEON YOU WERE DOING SO WELL. GO CALIZ GO.

ok.

December 08, 2013 at 12:24PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/hpaqLxnzfd/ #YES.

December 07, 2013 at 04:43PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/hnTbPRHzXq/ Illumi Run 2013.

December 06, 2013 at 10:27AM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/hkDlp1HzZ9/ Bear-rista. HAHAHAHA

Sometimes, okay, most of the times, I think about my future and it overwhelms me. I feel like I'm on  minuscule row boat just searching for land and everyone else are on huge mega cruise ships sailing full speed ahead paradise. and I'm here just meh. 

IGETTINGANXIOUSNONONONONONO

December 03, 2013 at 12:25PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/hci0EYHzUF/ Happy Birthday to mummy! Without you, there would be no me. And In sha Allah, if I become even half as strong as you are, I would be over the moon. You're my rock when everything gets crazy and the one I aspire to be like! I don't say it enough but I appreciate everything done, and treasure everything you've advised me...I just don't listen very well! Hahahah! Love you mummy! May your life get easier and happier!!

It pisses me off that you're useless and thoughtless.

Sounds

Do you remember how you feel safe in a song?
As long as it keeps playing, we're all good and nothing can touch us.
It wraps you in a blanket that reaches down and soothes you, like some magical soothing thing and it's just - yes.

And when you find that one song that perfectly says everything you need it to, it feels like you've found shelter from the rain. It's your shield when you've lost your sword. Like chocolate melting on burning scars. Like the sound of your mothers voice. Like the sound of people happy.

Like the sound of temporary faith.

December 02, 2013 at 10:31AM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/hZw4KEnzUv/ ho ho ho

I believe that life is hard to explain and your past is sometimes hard to stomach.

I believe that things happen for a reason and while you have no clue what the reason is, you'll learn about it one day.

I believe that sometimes life gets overwhelming or underwhelming and you just have to press on.

I believe that everything will click one day.

December 01, 2013 at 04:30PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/hX1NGInzQY/ Tim doesn't give a