It's nice to be acknowledged. It doesn't show, but I'm super happy right now. I hope I stay on course.

Wendy's Lunch

Went to the saloon with Nabilla & Sally. 

I already miss those girls. 

WENDY'S SOON! 

Game. Set. Match. 

Look, Bones, I love you. 

Wouldn't you want a Booth to say that to you? Le sigh.

I would have graduated if I stayed in Tp. I would have achieved something. I would have lost my soul but I would have achieved something. This stint in RP seems useless now. But the show must go on. Le sigh.

"If you ever had an asthma attack before you're short of breath, wheezing, the only thing you're trying to do is get some air. You don’t care about a basketball game, you don’t care about what’s on T.V., you don’t care about anybody calling you, you don’t care about a party. The only thing you care about when you're trying to breathe is to get some fresh air. That’s it! And when you get to the point where all you want to do is be successful as bad as you want to breathe, then you will be successful. Most of you say you want to be successful but you don’t want it bad, you just kind of want it. You don’t want it badder than you want to party. You don’t want it as much as you want to be cool. Most of you don’t want success as much as you want sleep. Some of you lost sleep more than you lost success. If you're going to be successful you have to be willing to give up sleep" -Eric Thomas 

Love, Me. 

WHAT? ANOTHER B? 

damn, expectation too high and cannot be met. my eyes are a quarter of a second away from closing and this is all I have to say for myself. I have to stop trying to compete with others. My grades are my own. my story is my own. My strengths are my own. My weaknesses are my own.

Stop playing a fool and start concentrating. 

but it all just feels so useless now. After poly what is there? Work then? Death? Family? Friends? What can someone just give me an answer because I'm on shaky ground and so close to sinking in.

You know feminist jokes or racist jokes or any kind of hurtful jokes? They only have as much power as you give them.

It scares me when they say that the quietest people have the loudest minds. I mean, does it mean because I speak my mind and want to grab the best time possible that my mind is dead silent?That I dont think?  I think that the phrase was said by some quite guy who want to console himself on not having a good time. Being quite and listening pays off, but sometimes you have to let loose and see where you mouth takes you.

xx

ps. School's okay, I'm fine, I'm studying so it's all good. 

ESN EVENT - HPB 21 March 2012

My kids for the day, Group A1! 

Yasmin playing Knock It Down

After all the activities, Brock, Yasmin, Rebbeca, Lola & Shauna

Lola being cute!

Cleo 

Made her cry today. HAHAH

Kate playing Knock It Down

Class couple

Cheeezeeeeeeee!

Wanita Dalam Hitam degan Mirldawati A.Hassan (19 March 2012)

So Watis & I watched The Woman In Black recently and to get to our seats we had to shimmy past this lady who gave us like 3 inches to walk past. 3 f-ing inches. I think she just wanted a lap dance. You know, she could have just asked, I'm sure Watis would have obliged.

Hello/Goodbye Money!

Forever 21 USD $8.80

Forever 21 USD $6.80

Forever 21 USD $4.80

H&M $24.90

I miss being loved. I miss being needed. I miss looking around and seeing people i love. I miss having someone but for right now, having someone is just not worth it. You know what it'd cost. It'd cost a arm and limb and just about everything that I cant possible lose right now.


 but boy, do I miss being special to someone.

     

I hate the streets I used to roam.

Tips for the future.

Tip#1: Don’t give a man more than he gives you.
Tip #2: Don’t give away exclusivity if he hasn’t yet committed.

Tip #3: Don’t plan dates.

Sushi Rice

3 cups uncooked sushi rice or sticky rice
3 cups water
½ cup rice vinegar
½ cup sugar
1 teaspoon salt

1. Wash the rice and rinse thoroughly.
2. Place rice and water in a rice cooker and set until cooked. Alternately, place rice and water in a medium saucepan. Bring to a boil over high heat, reduce to a simmer, and cook covered until done, 35 to 45 minutes.
3. Meanwhile, mix together the rice vinegar, sugar and salt in a small saucepan; cook over medium heat until sugar has dissolved. Allow to cool.
4. Put the cooked rice into a large mixing bowl; pour the vinegar sauce over the hot rice and mix. Allow to cool slightly before using in sushi recipes.
   
   

Deadline: 13 March 2012

• Daddy's letter + Cpf note
• Passport sized photo scanned in
• Camp form to be completed
• Double check enrollment
• Books to be returned
• Borrow: One Salt Sea - Seanan McGuire 

Valley's & Peaks: 10 March 2010

Gonna post a quick on because I'm running on 20% battery life left.

Peaks: Got to sleep in (again) woke up to calls from R & my uncle, it's always nice to hear from friends. Started out my day with finishing the last lib book I had, it turned out to be such a good book, I read till 4 in the afternn. Anyway, had my watermelon ice blend plus a chocolate waffle for lunch after that, then headed out to the lib to return/borrow book. Guess what? Found the three other installments for the book I read in the morning, so i picked them all up and was in and out of the lib within 10 mins. Some kind of record I would say! Moving on, read/surfed the net while waiting for my mum to come home so we could head to my aunts place for dinner cum family gathering. And oh what a dinner it was! Spagetti, Asam Pedas (Stingray & fish!!), Ikan Kicap, Stir Fired Veggies and CEREAL PRAWNS. Also had an laugh-a-min time with my family there, with all the kate spades & coach bags been "modeled" for sale there. ah, good times you guys. Let's hope that no matter how far apart I may grow from them, that I may also remember happy moments like this. ♥

Valleys: Felt bad for not saying Hi to you, felt even worst when you remembered my name. But in my defense, you looked so different! Also, originally had plans to go teach N english then head to Bugis with R&T but T had other plans so I kinda got lazy to head over to N's house. I am the worst tuition teacher ever. Room is officially labeled messy and I havent followed through with my promise to go to the gym. I break out in shivers every time I think about it ( I exaggerate)  And and and, I had to rely on spellcheck for the duration of this post. Spelling not getting any better ): Oh and 1 am and i'm craving for cereal prawns. wtf.

Seanan McGuire - October Daye Novels

Found a new series to read! One down, three to go!

lovess xx

Valleys & Peaks: 9 March 2012

Peaks: Got to sleep into today, heaven compared to the past days. Then I got to laze about, finishing two books I borrowed. A third will be finished tonight as soon as I get my dinner. After lazing around got ready and went out with A and got to visit the smoochiezz flea. Make up was nice today, grey & brown smokey eye and the usual strong brows. Found a packet of Honey Mustard Pretzels that cost only 1.10 at the Korean Supermarket over at Far East Plaza ( Bought two packs!! )Bought some small thing at the flea, cost only 3 buck so why not right? Had a nice breezy walk home alone with just the wind and my thoughts. Came home and HIMYM Season 7's almost done downloading. Might be done by 3 in the morning. Room's pretty clean? Decided to sign up for the camp today, whether I go or not is another matter. Herman tagged me in a funny assed vid! Getto Dora! Oh and found a wonderful new singer on youtube, Chloe T. Also, got 6 bucks plus dinner from Ddy today! Save moneyy!

 Valleys: Not sure what to do tmr, thought of going for Nk's Holi thing but Fz & Sq arent going so maybe not huh? So negative responses from them kinda bright me down a little. Texted and facebooked H if he was gg to M's to teach N (as I'm gonna do tmr morning) and abosolutly no response. Maybe he'll reply later? I hate not getting replies to my msges. (not that I'm pissed or anything) Came back home to an empty pitch black household. Oh wait, it wasnt empty just that everyone locked themselves in their rooms. *this is not a home, it's a house. i'm financially unstable. Running really low on cash, 30 dollars for the rest of the month low. Feeling kinda lonely these days. That's all I'll say about it.


***If you judge people, you have no time to love them. 

Triple Chocolate Caramel Brownies

        

Motorola RAZR XT910

29 Feb 2012

Wedding Discussion with the Drama guys!

After my bath I will.

- get watermelon ice blend
- return my lib books
- get my bank number.
- put cash back in
- buy a planner/notebook
- do my finances for the month
- confirm my awfully chocolate schedule. (call kara)
- sort out laundry

Huda Halil's Turning TwentyOne!

what to wear ):

xx

I need to get a note book. a proper one. maybe a moleskin one.







ah, who am I kidding, I'd never blast that much cash onto a moleskin notebook.

I heard somewhere that if at one point of time you become really really happy, you'll become really really sad afterwards. Maybe because the things that happen after couldn't live up to your expectations. I've made myself so many promises and not one of them fulfilled. I'm gonna work on one list now and for the whole year, i'll work at it. And I'll check back on 31st Dec 2012.

*NTS:
Remember 31st. Remember how it felt like with all friends by your side. To hurt (because of some  douchebag) yet still know that you'll be fine. To look at the (delayed) fireworks and to know that your whole life stretches before you. Know that many, many, many things change but moments do not. What you felt at the one moment in time; nobody can erase, nobody can replace.

Out of everything, remember that thing change and these things happen but never forget the lessons learnt and the smile given.

Apparently, "monies" is real word! Huh, who knew? :)

Thank you for all you've done.

Alhamdulillah.
Ya Allah, thank you for all you've given me. For never leaving me even after all my stupid mistakes. For giving me parents that only want the best for me. For giving me chance after chance to prove myself. For answering all my prayers. For ensuring that at every step of the way, I'm safe. For guiding me safely, through out everything.

I may not have gotten the course I wanted but at least it's a course. I'm still hoping that I maybe able to get into the course that I want but if this is the path that I have to take, then, it's the path that i'll take.

Explaining twilight in one sentence.

I feel a bit weird doing nothing. I'm not here or there, I'm nowhere I want to be right now. I wish I could fast forward this part of my life.
xx

Favorite Chocolate Chip Cookies

1 cup butter
1 cup brown sugar
1/2 cup sugar
2 eggs (room temp if possible)
1 teaspoon pure vanilla
3 cups flour
1 teaspoon baking soda
3/4 teaspoon salt
1 1/2 cups semi-sweet chocolate chips (feel free to throw in the whole bag if you like them super chocolate-y)

Cream butter, brown sugar and white sugar together in a mixer. Then add the eggs, one at a time. Beat until creamy. Add the vanilla.

In another bowl mix the dry ingredients together before slowly adding them to the creamed mixture. When combined, stop the mixer and add the semi-sweet chips. Mix up and then drop by the teaspoonful onto an ungreased cookie sheet. Mold them into a ball as best as you can with the spoon for a more shaped cookie.

Bake on 350 degrees for 8 minutes. Place on wire rack to cool. Enjoy!

Things I'd like.