The tears will come and it's real

Wanting to cry is better than feeling numb because the tears will come and it's real, it's fresh and raw and really feeling something. Which means that it will pass. 

When I'm numb nothing comes to mind. everything is expected and everything is cold. 

I always liked the cold but not this kind of cold. This kind of cold isolates you and ravages you. It seeks to slice you off from the world.  Like an iceberg set adrift.