This year I spent the last hours with the drama guys. So much fun, it made me miss being in TP. Sometimes I think - no wait - I always think that somehow, I had to go to TP. It's like a set point in my life. I had too. Life would be so different if I didn't go & that's good diff and not a bad. I loved TP. TP forced my hand, TP made me better, TP gave me my drama loves. I will forever love TP for that.
So, before meeting up with the drama loves, I headed out w/ S to R place. Absolutely glad I got S to head down with me! My fingertip were freezing with nerves, mainly because I haven't seen them or spoken to them since that incident. That one. I just, I just feel like sometimes, we live on - wait no - no point trying to hash it over. It's done, we're over. You never once made it seem that losing my friendship hurt you. You didn't even acknowledge me. In my head we had a fight. All the things I needed to say came out. I shouted to you. I said that I didn't want to try to fix this because I was tired. I am tired of always trying to fix this. We're doomed to fail. And I shouted at you for not trying. Not even caring. I left, but you, you let me. After all the times I tried to keep this going. You, you're my gravity. I want to leave but you pull me in every time.
We left R's early. I didnt want to go, but I did.
Heading to N's after that and had the most amazing seafood pasta! N's mum can really cook! Actually, I kinda craving for it now. Hehs. I spent half the time regretting you and the other half going crazy. And a little bit thinking how both last year and this year I was missing someone. SO LAME. THIS BETTER NOT BE A THING. I DONT LIKE THIS SHIT.
yes, okay that was my last moments of 2012.
Now really, hello 2013.
We've come so far.
xx
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